dreams in my thouhgts

41_42_4f_58_4 @ 2006-12-09T19:28:00

2006-12-09T18:28:34Z

my journal is dead. i moved to another journal as my life changed completely: http://wuselwuschel.livejournal.com/profile
add me if you want :)

02_25_2006

2006-02-25T14:53:32Z

haven't much time during the last weeks... i felt very unmotivated to do something like decoing or writing. i was just lazy or did something for school. most of my stress is over now.
i had the feeling everything was a bit darker and i felt cold. marc asked me, what's up with me, but i wasn't able to give an answer. even as i didn't know what's wrong.
since a few weeks i go to the gym, as there's a lot do do with my hips and my muscles. i'm such a lazy person...

01_28_2006

2006-01-28T19:12:51Z

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♥ Liana and Marc have been romantically-together for a long time. That alone demonstrates a degree of compatibility. Similar personality descriptions are a plus. The religious faith they share may help to form a bond. They both abstain from drinking, so that helps compatibility. However, their astrological signs are not in harmony. Their common love of animals is good thing. But their views on children are dissimilar. Overall, Liana and Marc are highly compatible. They are capable of having a beautiful relationship together. ♥

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01_24_2006

2006-01-24T23:06:39Z

brrrr, it's so cold here. i'm looking forward spring, flowers, the sun, the warmth,... and it'd more fun to go out.
saturday we meet evelyn and her brother gregor. both were in mössingen, as a friend of gregor had a "gig" at the "m". i have never been there before, so why we shouldn't? perhaps i have to think about my visits in external locations before, especially if there's something like hiphop... Marc was amused, i talked to evelyn and we HAD to see the gig (gregor's demand). hm... what to say about the "gig"? it was amusing: some kids on the stage, rapping about this "shitty" life. evelyn was exalted, marc went out to eat something and i thought about my back, as i had aches (i need a new bed).
after that, we left the "nice" scenery to search for a nice pub. in mössingen. impossible. the only one i like was closing, as we arrived, so we had to visit the beer-academy (uhm, yes, we're in germany, but i hate stereotypes). ok, we sat down, talked about my mom and after awhile, gregor phoned us. he wanted to drive home (with evelyn) and i explained the way to the academy. after half an hour he still wasn't there and we were afraid he took the wrong way. marc took his car, evelyn took her car and we searched for gregor in mössingen. i guess, one and a half hour... we meet us at the post office and thought about next steps. evelyn's mobile phone rang and gregor was there. he asked us, to collect him from the "m". so he never went away and we were afraid and very stressed after awhile. marc left us ( he wanted to watch the last few minutes of "the omen", a movie he'd like to see since years) and we went to this horrible location. gregor was really drunk and enjoyed the life and the girls around him. evelyn run to him, took his arm and dragged him to a quite place. i haven't heard what she said, but she looked very angry and i've seen gregor turning from drunk into dry in a few seconds. we left the place, evelyn drove me home and i found marc watching the last few minutes of "the omen". poor marc...
i'm tired now and i have to sleep now... i have to wake up at 5.30... narf

01_05_2006

2006-01-05T13:20:50Z

i'm badly tired...
i got no mail today. perhaps next week. tomoorow is a public holiday in germany, so there's no chance to get out of the house.
but today. marc's mother is celebrating her birthday today and we'll drive to her in a few hours. we also have to buy food for the weekend and some other stuff like cotton buds, toilet paper and some other little things.
i tried to write a letter to nicole, but i'm really uninspired today. it's not my pleasure to write letters on my pc, but some people like it more.
i'm a bit hunggry. i feel, as i've eaten some minutes before, but on the other side i'm hungry. sometimes it's weird.
oh, i filled out some new slams these days. they were laying here for weeks and i wasn't able to fill them out. it's the same with my letters. the only thing i can do is decoing, but also 3-4 per day. i'm a lazy person.
snow has fallen. outside it's all white and i hate it. i don't like the winter and especially the cold. brrrr.
hm, nothing else now.

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2006-01-04T21:17:37Z

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2006-01-04T14:28:58Z

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01_04_2006_quiz2

2006-01-04T14:21:01Z

Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
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01_04_2006_quiz

2006-01-04T14:19:09Z

What is a good quote for you? by grlinterupted
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01_04_2006_2

2006-01-04T14:15:56Z

well, these holidays are weird... i'm always tired and i could sleep during the hole day. yesterday i got up at 5 p.m. and that can't be normal. ok, normally i'm tired, too, but my impression of the last days is another one. can't figure it out.
at ebay i bought marc sexy shorts which are transparent with a lacing. they came today and marc is really happy now :-). let's see what to do with it.
oh, i didn't talked about christmas and new year's eve... should i? there's nothing interesting. my brother visited my mom and it was ok, even if i wasn't happy to see him. during the last months he asked my mom for money as he has financial problems. his standard of living is really high, so there's no wonder about that. the other thing is that mom told me that she won't give any money to me, as i'm doing an education she don't like. i was confused... why that? my brother earns money and me not. where's the balance? and my mom even don't know that he's in dept (5000€!). if she knew that she would pay him all.
we also visited marc's parents and his aunt at christmas. and after the parent's visit we went out to reutlingen. we meet some guys we haven't seen for ages. so it was a funny evening.
new year's eve was unspectacular...
some days ago, sammy called me and asked if i'm interested to meet some people from our class. i called it off.
uhm, perhaps i read something now.

01_04_2006

2006-01-04T02:00:30Z

woohooo... i'm back with a new layout inspired by the artwork of kurt halsey.
ok, what happened during the last few months?!
first, since the end of august i work in the kindergarten. the children are so lovely and the team is great. there are no problems. and lately i got my money (it was an endless story to get it...).
i have so much to do like writing reports about reflexions, writing reading diaries and thinking about the pedagogical things at work. also i have to learn for school.
but now i have holidays :-)
ok, "cheers" is coming...

09_19_2005

2005-09-19T21:48:40Z

You scored as Winter. You are WINTER. You're more introspective, thinking deeply, feeling deeply. You love nothing better than to enjoy one on one time with those who are important to you. You are cautious, and sometimes second guess yourself. Dreams, though you have them, are a luxury, because life is not a plaything.

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07_30_2005_2

2005-07-29T22:36:45Z

i'm still there :-)
these days are full of stress with myself, my mother and all the things around. my mother isn't able to accept my job (yet...), so everytime we phone it's hard to stay quiet, but i try my best. today she told me, she'd never do a job with children or old people, because it's too exhausing. in my opinion it's the best way for my person, as i need social contacts. there's no better job, as i love to do something for others. my mother said always i had to work somewhere in the sales but i'm not able to lie to people. i worked there some years before:i sold shoes and i had to tell the customers these shoes are good and high quality, but i knew they'd come back to complain.
i also think about my dad again. i haven't seen him for 13 years now and i still miss him. so there's no way to find him, as my mother isn't disposed to give me any addy or something else.
she's getting on my nerves.
at august 29th i'll start to work in the kindergarten and i'm looking forward this. i hope gudrun, my instructor, is really okay and i don't have any probs like with katrin.
ok, that's all new now.

07_30_2005

2005-07-29T22:21:44Z

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The quality that most appeals to you:	Spiritual Advancement
In a survival situation, you:	Act crazy as a diversion
Your hidden talent is:	A beautiful mind
Your gift is:	Fearlessness
In groups, you:	Perfer to act as security
Your best quality is:	Your insightfulness
Your weakness is:	Your timidity

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07_03_2005_3

2005-07-03T06:03:10Z

here are some other pics with us :-)

yes, i know, this pic is very small ^-^. from the left: my lovely marc, kalmar & alain.

marc. we sat together in the meadow forward the parliament.

here are the lots behind marc.

this should be an experiment, but as you can see, it's nothing. only coffee, ginger ale and an ashtray.

the following pics are taken during our journey home. we had a ticket for three people valid for one day and you can only use slower trains. so we had to drive by train over 13 hours. here are alain & marc (we were tired).

that's me.

alain. i choose this pic because of the background.

marc & i.

07_03_2005_2

2005-07-03T05:45:55Z

here are pics from our "sightseeing tour":

the parliament... we haven't seen the inside, as there were too much people and it was evening :-(

the chancellorship: it's taller as in tv (it's mostly shown in this perspective). if you walk along the side, you can see the building is a rectangle.

a piece of the wall. next year this part will be open for visitors, so we stood forward a barrier.

the other side of the wall.

brandenburger tor (i wasn't able to find a synonym in english, so i guess, it sounds the same). as we went there, an exhibition was there. so it was difficult to take a photo. this exhibition shows the brandenburger tor during the years (after the war, with the wall and after then). it was interesting to see, how the wall isolated the brandenburger tor ( you have to see it!).

potsdamer platz. this place is a big lot (you can't see it at the photo, but the left side is full with lots). before the wall broke, there was nothing, only the wall.

07_03_2005

2005-07-03T05:25:29Z

ok, here are some more pics from the concert. all the others are really bad, as they made amidst a crowd:

06_30_2005

2005-06-30T20:38:01Z

we got our pics!!!!!
today i scanned the concert pics and i'll add some here now. first of all, the pics are made by kalmar. his place was on the front, so we gave him the camera. half the time, i stayed together with marc at the outside, because i'm normally afraid of concerts. my problem: i'm too small and i have "agoraphobia" (not really, but don't feel very well). the opening band were "the dresden dolls" and they were really great! amanda's voice is so effectual and brian loves his drums. alain got a drum stick from brian including autographs from both.
i felt frustration about reznor. he's so arrogant! as he came to the stage, he didn't welcome anybody. but he played almost 2 hours, so that wasn't bad.
ok, i guess, that's all. here are the pics:

after the concert at the metro

06_19_2005

2005-06-19T11:17:35Z

woohoo, i'm back again in hicksville! :-)
berlin is strange... i last visited berlin as a child and i can't remember a lot. it's a pity that my pics aren't ready yet, so we have to wait for them. our digicam is really bad to take good pics (they always are too dark), so i had my aps. the good thing: 2 full films with 80 pics. the first film is amost full with concert pics and the other is our sightseeing tour :-). i guess, in one week we'll have the pics, so i can show them. until then i use pics from the internet :-).
ok, at tuesdays we had to drive to stuttgart at 14:30 (from tübingen). in stuttgart, a guy waited for us from an agency for arranged lifts (27 € per person is really ok, by train we had to pay 60 € or more). we only had breaks in nürnberg and leipzig, so we drove only 6 1/2 hours.
there's a really annoying story from nürnberg i want to tell. we were at a station and almost everybody from our bus had to go to the toilet. there was a drinking hole with toilets, but the holder wanted money. my money lay in the bus and the holder was so angry (because of 30 cents!). that's really weird, that some people are looking after money like that :-(.
in berlin we had to drive to kalmar (where we slept) and i enjoyed the feeling to drive with the metro. alain said, he's disappointed, as the metro in vienna is faster. hm, in tübingen there's no metro, so what to say?!
arrived to kalmar we decided to drink some vodka and smoke some pot. great idea, after an exhausting jouney :-) as a welcome kalmar gave us some dvd's with "bad movies". that's funny, as we often see these kind of movies after a hard day to relax. i haven't seen them yet, but i guess there's one day i'll look them.
hm, funny thing: the only one who has to barf was kalmar (he had a relaxed day before). i don't know how long we sat there, but we all were tired after awhile, so there was the time to go to bed.
at wednesday alain began to be stressed out early in the morning, as he wanted to go to the columbiahalle, where the concert was. it's a bit strange to be there long before the concert is starting. we had to walk and this walk was very long, i guess about two hours. we found a burger king, where we ate something. and we met people going to the concert from nine inch nails.

06_12_2005_2

2005-06-12T11:13:33Z

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Your Love Is...	Sweet
During Lovemaking You Act...	Like a cat, longing to be pet
Your Partner Is...	Your everything
Your Partner Has Said That You...	Are their best friend
Your Love is Summed Up In A Quote.	"One must know how to seduce"

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Your Birthdate: June 28

Your birth on the 28th day of the month (1 energy) adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your Life Path.
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A birthday on the 28th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach.
Unlike much of the other 1 energy, this birthday is one that endow with the ability to start a job and continue on until it is finished.
You may prefer to use the broad brush, but you can handle details as well.
You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed.
You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations.

06_12_2005

2005-06-12T00:12:32Z

yep, back again after a great shopping day :-)
first, i have to tell, that everything with my vacation is ok and claudia only forgot to add it in the roster. pooh, sometimes it feels like i'm getting stupid :-/. the only thing getting on my nerves is alain. today i asked him via icq if he called the guy with the bus, but he didn't. so he asked if we could do it (it was too late). after some hours, he said we could ask other people. grrrrr. i hate it to be unorganized! we'll drive at tuesdays so there's not enough time to check everything alone now. it's always the same: i'm the last one with the organizing brain and everybody gives me the responsibility for everything.
ha, here's my report from stuttgart :-)
i met my mother in the early morning (i woke up 5.30 am, it's a strange thing for me) and we went to stuttgart. first we had a great breakfast with fried eggs (me) and scrambled eggs with bacon (my mother). yummie! after that we decided to visit a good perfumery, where i bought this one :-)

it's so great!!!!!
ok, the other things i bought:
a tunique with many, many colours. i can wear it with jeans, as a dress and it's sooooooooo sweet! as it has some turquoise jewels i decided to buy suitable earrings, some like this:

then i saw these wonderful sandals with wedge heels and i couldn't resist :-). on the wedge heels are coloured stripes and the rest is pink.
surely i went shopping as i need a jeans and i found some from take two. they are so comfortable to wear! they are one of those things i'll take to berlin.
hm, what did i bought next?! a good shampoo and a finisher for my hair. they are growing very good and perhaps i own a good picture some day to post it here. our digicam is bad. the pics are always too dark.
between the shops we drank a lot of coffee (great idea during shopping, as we always searched a toilet *g*).
oh, one bad thing to tell. as we were in the drugstore to buy the shampoo, somebody took a packet of dried apricots in my bag. i had luck, as i've seen it after buying, but i were so angry. i hate dried apricots and if somebody had found it in my bag i had a problem. i throw them away.
ok, back again in reutlingen at my mothers home: my mother gave these skirts with volants. these skirts in stuttgart looked so stupid, but they are very sweet. i own one in black and in beige now.
i guess, i have to take some photos with me and the clothes.
ok, that was my report :-)
i'm so happy with my new clothes, as i needed them. and it's a wonder that this tunique looks great at myself. normally i have problems, as my boobs are too big (in my opinion, marc disagree).
ok, i'll decorate now :-)

06_10_2005_2

2005-06-10T03:14:54Z

jep, this layout is great. but now i have to go :-(

06_10_2005

2005-06-10T02:34:36Z

hm, strange day :-/
at work i've seen in the roster that claudia forget to update the next week for me. bad feeling, because she left for vacation and nobody knows something. shit! i hope somebody is able to update it. if not, i have to work this and next weekend, so my time in berlin would be very short.
i phoned my mother today, as we want to visit stuttgart at saturday. i need some new clothes and she knows some good boutiques there. i hate to buy something in reutlingen. it seems the clothes are the older ones from stuttgart and they are in weird sizes. perhaps i'll find something, as i need clothes and at ebay i couldn't find anything good for me.
the end of the month my brother will visit us again. in may he visited my mother, but he had no time to stay very long. i haven't seen him almost a year. i guess, he's not really interested in any contact with me. i wrote messages and i phoned him, but i'm always the active part. that hurts me, as we had a good contact in earlier times :-(
today i got a letter from a pal i haven't written for years. she asked me, what's going on, but i'm not interested to write her again, as i don't like her very much.
ok, i have to go to bed now.

06_08_2005

2005-06-08T01:54:55Z

pooh, it took a long time to write again, that gave me the opportunity to use a new layout here. i guess, it's only a test, as i'm not very happy with it.
next thursday we're going to visit berlin for some days. at monday i have to work and the rest of the week is free :-). thursdays we're driving to berlin with people we don't know. alain was against a flight as it is more expensive. in my opinion we had to do it, as we don't need very long by plane. now it'll be a long journey :-(. hopefully we'll arrive in berlin without probs.
today i sent a message to </a></b></a>kalter_stern and perhaps we'll meet us. :-)
hm, another news?!
i'm still working with old people and it feels great. some of them are so nice. it's a great feeling, if somebody's taking your hand. my colleagues asked me if i'm interested to start an education as an elderly care nurse, but that's not the right thing for the REST of my life. and after my fights for getting my education...
nope.
perhaps i'll write more tomorrow as i'm very tired now.

05_05_2005

2005-05-05T18:43:52Z

pooh, i'm nervous, thinking about nin. marc bought the new album "with teeth" a few days ago, but i heard it two or three times until now. there are some catchy tunes on it, so "the hands that feed" is always in my mind.
i guess </a></b></a>oasisproject has seen nin on may 3rd, so perhaps he'll give us a review about the concert.
ok, is there something new?!
yes, since monday i work in this old people's home 5 minutes away from here. first, there were doubts... after this nice story with my mothers father-in-law. but some old people told me other things about the war, so i'm calmed down right now. one man told me, that the german medics won't operate him, even though he was a german, too. he had to visit denmark to be operated by the medics there. i guess, he wasn't a real nazi, but you had to do what the high commands said, or you were murdered. it's a public theme these day, because the war ended 60 years ago. so perhaps there's an imagination, how old some people are. there are some with over 100 years! but most aren't able to talk about their lives, because they are lamed. i've spoken with an old woman, born in 1912, and she was so friendly and positive. it's unbelievable: she lived during two world wars! i hope i'll be so sincere at this age.
my colleagues are great, too. they show me everything i want to know and they asked if i'm interested to do an education there. i could never work as an elderly care nurse the rest of my life, so it's better to do my education i want.
ok, there "about a boy" in tv now and i'll take a look at this movie.

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